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hate to bore ya...

a few things // Friday, Aug. 22, 2008 -- 4:23 a.m.

So last night at work was… Not so great. I made $450 but otherwise, Jameson was all freaking awkward and quiet (which I took to mean we DEFINITELY had sex) AND the 19-yr-old told me she was in love with him and she has a way more fun personality than me and he was paying more attention to her than me when we first got on the boat (before she got totally trashed) so it made me jealous when they were joking around all night. I got off work and stayed up there and drank and then went home and was all bummed.

Today was terrible. I only got like 4 or 5 hours of sleep last night, woke up at 9 to go to totent for an hour, left there, got my hair cut, went to get Pad Thai at HW and then worked a promo for my sis for 4 hours. I was bummy, sad, depressed, and angry all day. Not good. Probably a combination of PMS, lack of sleep, drinking, and feeling crappy about myself about the whole Jameson thing =p

Before I went to work at Bar tonight though, my sis texted me to let me know that one of the owners of the distributor’s brother thought I was really hot (“The tall brunette [brand name I will not say]’s girl was really put together. She was beautiful.” My sis says, “That’s my sister!” She says he said I was really pretty). I SO needed that. I had just tried on my cute jeans that fit fine (even straight out of the wash) on Tuesday but were uncomfortably tight on my thighs today =( =( =( and I just felt yucky all over (like I just mentioned).

Then I got to work and just said, “Hi, Jameson,” the first time he walked by me tonight and he said, “How’s it going, Demi?!” and then the awkwardness was nearly all gone! So things got better.

And I took a lot of shots.

And some chick told me, “You’re so sweet!! You need to tell these other bitches to smile!” -- that’s a thought I have on being “pretty.” I’m aware that a lot of girls come up to the bar and expect me to be a complete bitch because they’re intimidated by me so I try to be really nice to them and smile if I can (also because I notice that a lot of the chicks I work with don’t smile). BUT that’s also a lot easier because I’m still new at this place. Once I’ve been there a few more months, it will get harder…

=p

Ugh. Anyway, that’s just a quick little catch-up. I wanna go to sleep.

‘Night!

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